Creating through depression…

I haven’t touched my camera since the wedding shoot. Even though I’m probably fully capable of going out and shooting again, I haven’t been able to find the creative spark to propel me forward. This hasn’t really been the first time but in the past I’ve often had a project or the ability to work through something, either a deadline to be reached or a means to get the thing done. It feels like being literally on rest and recoup for so long as sapped most of that away.

Christmas this year was incredibly hard on me and I had a breakdown, and I didn’t have any escapism to help me. I tried to focus on my cyanotype book production to give me something to do, but as working time was limited and exhaustion set in it didn’t help out in those aspects. My mental health got to the worst it’s ever been.

Due to talking and working through a personal issue, I’ve managed to let some of that baggage go and I was able to start working on what might be my next book.

Note the page numbers and lack of words… there probably too many image references there.

This is an idea I’ve had brewing in my head since last year, based on the model I’ve wanted to work with for a long time who I absolutely love and adore. Nothing is final, still at the conceptual stage, but it feels good to get something done on digital paper.

S